Chu Lian finally was not able to withstand the lie that he lived with for so long and told Lu Ping the real version of events in episode 42. It was probably the only time that anything he said made sense. It was his version of things or at least how he felt was supposed to be like. Though I still do not feel it was a good reason OR excuse to be forgiven like I mentioned in the other post. I meant even if it was not how he thought ‘love’ was supposed to be, but that did not make sense to push all the blame on Lu Ping either. I have to give Chu Lian credit for admitting that his dating Lu Ping was because of his longing for some sense of fame and acknowledgment when others looked at them and made him feel proud to have such a girlfriend.
It sounds repetitive from the previous post of discussion, but I honestly believe that all of them were responsible for the misunderstanding, not just one person that should be carrying on the blame. It was hard to blame them since they could not truly see what was going on nor could they predict the future, BUT it was super obvious with certain things. We all have will power and self-control. Whether we meant for something to happen or not, it still happened, what was the point in forcing others to accept us or forgive us so fast when they were hurting too? Yes, Lu Ping was hurting the others and herself so much that it was irreversible but it did not mean she was the devil. I actually felt that because she seemed the most wicked that made her despicable YET I was able to recognize the whole pattern all over again with shifting the blame fully to her just because she was behaving so out of control. People who were able to be gentle and acted pitiful received more brownie points than ever. That was how life was.
Other than that, I was finally seeing some sign of Bao Jian Feng’s acting in that scene with Chu Lian revealing the awful, cruel truth to Lu Ping. It was like I was able to feel all the feelings hold up inside him and why he never really felt guilty for what he’d done. It was because he honestly believed his version of the truth and the reason he had to marry Lu Ping made him a bigger person–or so it seemed.
It was kind of obvious that the whole scheme with them portraying a wonderful family, getting along, etc did not work since it was lying all over again. Though they did it for the good BUT I thought it was lying too or forcing Lu Ping to the corner so of course she didn’t fall for it. She thought of it as a trap (and indeed it was) so how was she able to accept it? That was what I understand from Lu Ping’s point of view, but I must agree with Yun Fan that IF Lu Ping wanted to play that kind of game with the reporters and all, it was fair game for both.
To get back to the original topic, I had a feeling and it was very obvious that it had to be Chu Lian to undo the knots of the past. YET I did not realize that Qiong Yao would go that way with finally letting Chu Lian reveal the truth version of it all. Though it did not make me like any one of the characters more but Chu Lian seemed less fake to me afterward.
Somehow, I had a feeling the truth was always the worst one. Though they were living in hell before with Lu Ping’s constant schemes and never ending yelling, but when she was reverting to her old self, it was much more scary. It was not because she wanted to start over. But it was the end of everything. Once again, I must compliment Qin Lan for bringing out her character so well. It made all the differences with transitions from the carefree and innocent girl from the beginning, to someone full of hatred and hurt in the later parts, and at the point where she realized she had nothing to begin with–it had changed her into someone giving up finally. It was like she had let go, not because of wanting to start over, but to end it all for herself. The worst of all was not having too much love or hate in the heart, but having nothing at all. For the first time, I actually feel or could understand why anyone would want to end his or her life just like that. I still do not approve of it as a way to escape from all the emptiness inside, but I actually could sympathize for Lu Ping at that point. She was not hiding or dodging away, but it was because it was the only way she feel she could do to release everyone from their guilt. If they honestly felt that she was in the wrong and she was their ‘burden’, then she wanted to help them move on with their lives, so they could no longer feel like they need to do anything for her. Those things were not what she wanted anyway.
The hospital scene was quite touching with the recounts and the events that followed. However, I think Zi Ling’s words sort of ruined it. Lucky it did not trigger Lu Ping anymore since she was more than ever regretful of her actions because of what her parents had done for her. In all fairness, I think she only needed to apologize to her parents and not anyone else. Since they (her parents) were the ones who brought her up and cared for her regardless of who she was or how stubborn she’d been these past times.