When I thought that 2016 was a terrible year for me, I was wrong. 2017 continued to tank to a new level of crappiness. There were many frustrating things–one after another. It was like when I asked, “How much worse could 2017 be?”, it was like a challenge to the universe. So stuff happening in real life obviously affected how much time I have for this blog or attempted to keep some sort of activity. I did better than last year regarding updates, but that was a lot of effort because I’m still way behind on some news that I wanted to talk about. Yet no time or more like didn’t feel like it at the moment. I continued to get drained to another level that I thought might not be possible–like several days before. Then the pattern just repeated itself at different intervals. I think somewhere along the way, I ended up revamping my blog by getting rid of the too random posts. Like those general update ones. Although my blog already is random on many levels, I didn’t want to just post for the sake of placeholders too much. Anyway, here are some stats for this year.
Complete failure–unlike what I promised last year about getting things done. I started looking over some of the fanfics again and managed to get going on some, but I can’t promise how fast it would be rolled out. I’ll get it out when I’m happy with what I wrote.
I used “You’re Always Beautiful” to start the year, thinking that if I continue to retain some sense of positiveness, somehow things will get better. But it didn’t. Anyway, how was this year regarding translations? I didn’t realize I was that productive. Mostly, I tried to push the majority of 183 Club’s songs out.
I didn’t want to do this update like I said last year. However, I felt like I needed to persuade myself to continue on. Not to mention, I want to keep some sort of a teeny, tiny bit of hope that 2018 will actually be better. So we’ll see, right?
I usually don’t do this, but I just thought I do it since year since I saw the list the other day. (Go here for the list in its originality.) And I know she’s not ranked first, but I just like the picture, lol.
The other day, Wilber shared a picture with “God of Songs” (歌神) Jacky Cheung with the caption that mentioned Jacky was supposedly his “master” (師父). I had to double-check since I wasn’t aware, lol. The other picture disclosed of the matter even more, because, from the flowers he sent Jacky, it clarified that Jacky wasn’t really his master, not really in a sense that Jacky recognized it and had gone through the “tea offering ceremony”, lol. Will had decided to declare it as that–quite thick-skinned attempt on his part (as he had said in the message, lol). You gotta love Will for his effort, right? What was the occasion? Jacky had launched a world tour called “A Classic Tour” so that had drawn a lot of attention and excitement all around the e-circle. Many others had posted their own pictures of attending the tour, but what caught my attention was Will’s humor.
Year 3 in doing this. I really want to keep doing this, but I felt that 2016 had been a complete letdown on my part. Granted, it was a terrible year on many levels. It had affected me so much, draining me emotionally that I didn’t feel like keeping some kind of streak anymore. I only did some posts when I felt like it. Then I also tried to pick myself up by the end of the year by trying to release songs translations back-to-back at times, not even saving them for later so cushion posts could do the honor. I just didn’t feel like updating a lot of things. At first, I had prepared a post about a particular pairing, but I felt like I’m better than that. Not to mention how I wouldn’t want to cause even more misunderstandings between fans. At times, it’s very hard to restrain. But in the end, real-life got in the way. I took the actions that wonderful couple took, instead of arguing with senseless people who are full of evil thoughts for them. Yet I will say that can’t be epic like them so maybe one day I will break out of my silence to go at it in one post to unleash all the bottled-up frustrations. Because I know one of those days I will just blow up.
Notice that I took the poll out for the stars. Partially, it was due to what happened earlier this year. The other part was because I felt kind of wrong with teasing readers about possible updates if they voted more or whatever. I’m grateful to those who participated and continue to follow my blog–even in silence. I appreciate the constant likes and all as well. I really do. It’s just that I don’t want to be leaving you hanging on that. Sure, I will continue to update for my favorites from time to time, but that will depend on how long before I take care of some real-life matters.
I think the year reached a new low for fan fiction updates because of my distractions of other stuff. I can’t promise it’ll get any better this coming year. I’m sorry that I made those of you who are reading those stories wait for too long. But I can promise you that I will finish regardless of obstacles since I don’t usually scrap stories away when it’s well on its way. I’ll try to do a separate fan fiction update later this year to clarify some matters.
Payback – Chapters 4-5
Using Rebirth to start the year didn’t help at all. Despite the fact that I was having high hopes at that time. The year continued to dive with a lot of forced positiveness. But what else could I do, right? Hopefully the coming year will be better.
So, what now? I don’t think there is any other choice except to move forward. I want to keep being positive, ignoring trolls in general, and just focus on my own matters. I want to get back on writing posts about Jun Ya and Xiao Xiao Yu. I have been active on Xiao Xiao Yu for the first part of the year and then somehow faded. But I did update more on Qiao Qiao in the later parts of the year. I just have to continue on that track. Not to mention getting back into fanfics, because I seriously miss them. Focusing on just real life stuffs really suck all the energy right out of me. I’ll try to work on a balance. Somehow. Because I seriously miss this blog. What I did do though was letting this blog becoming somewhat official with its own domain. Yes, that was a mini-Christmas present for myself since I managed to find a deal. Oh yeah, how could I forget Janine? Although I did update on her this year, I was somewhat neglecting her and only updating randomly. I also want to get back to Penny. More importantly, I want to actually watch and finish reviewing some dramas I’ve been holding back on.
This might possibly be the last year I do this type of update since I don’t find the fun in it anymore. Maybe resorting back to the typical data from WordPress next year. Not sure. But we’ll see.
Song Title: A Thousand Heartbreaking Reasons (一千個傷心的理由)
Music by: Li Si Song (李偲菘)
Lyrics by: Xing Zeng Hua (邢增華)
Key: Bold = Original Red-Orange = Pin Yin Royal Blue = English Faded Green = Vietnamese
愛過的人 我己不再擁有 ai guo de ren wo ji bu zai yong you The one whom I loved, I no longer possess anything Người đã từng yêu qua, tôi đã không còn gì nữa 許多故事 有傷心的理由 xu duo gu shi you shang xin de li you There are many stories that contain reasons for a heartbreak Có nhiều câu chuyện chứa đầy những sự thương đau 這一次我的愛情 等不到天長地久 zhe yi cie wo de ai qing deng bu dao tian chang di jiu This time, my love couldn’t wait for eternity Lần này, cuộc tình của tôi sẽ không đợi được thiên trường địa cửu 錯過的人 是否可以回首 cuo guo de ren shi fou ke yi hui shou The person whom I had missed the chance with, it would be impossible to go back Người đã lỡ lầm, sẽ không còn quay đầu lại được
愛過的心 沒有任何請求 ai guo de xin mei you ren he qing qiu The heart that had loved, no longer has any requests Trái tim đã từng yêu qua, đã không còn gì để thỉnh cầu 許多故事 有傷心的理由 xu duo gu shi you shang xin de li you There are many stories that contain reasons for a heartbreak Có nhiều câu chuyện chứa đầy những sự thương đau 這一次我的愛情 等不到天長地久 zhe yi cie wo de ai qing deng bu dao tian chang di jiu This time, my love couldn’t wait for eternity Lần này, cuộc tình của tôi sẽ không đợi được thiên trường địa cửu 走過的路 再也不能停留 zou guo de lu zai ye bu neng ting liu The road that had already been traveled, it would never stop Con đường từng đi qua, sẽ không thể nào ngừng lại
一千個傷心的理由 一千個傷心的理由 yi qian ge shang xin de li you yi qian ge shang xin de li you There are one thousand reasons for a heartbreak, one thousand reasons for a heartbreak Có một ngàn lý do để mà đau lòng, ngàn lý do để mà đau lòng 最後我的愛情 在故事裡慢慢陳舊 zui hou wo de ai qing zai gu shi li man man chen jiu In the end, my love in the story slowly turned into being old-fashioned Cuối cùng, tình yêu của tôi ở trong câu chuyện đã từ từ lỗi thời 一千個傷心的理由 一千個傷心的理由 yi qian ge shang xin de li you yi qian ge shang xin de li you There are one thousand reasons for a heartbreak, one thousand reasons for a heartbreak Có một ngàn lý do để mà đau lòng, ngàn lý do để mà đau lòng 最後在別人的 故事裡我被遺忘 zui hou zai bie ren de gu shi li wo bei yi wang In the end, within someone’s story, I was forgotten Cuối cùng, ở trong câu chuyện của người ta, tôi đã bị lãng quên
*All translations were done by DTLCT.